He snuffed slightly, screwed up his nose and fought the tears out of his eyes. As much as it hurt to have Kanaya tell him how much of an outcast he was for reasons he didn't understand, as much as he hated being blamed for something an alternate version of himself was doing and that he never intended to do, he didn't want to cry in front of anyone but John. Ar was nice enough, it was real big of her to be helping him out like this - maybe a bit beyond what an auspistice was really supposed to do. He liked it, though. It made him feel a bit better that someone at least understood.

He exhaled sharply, and ran ring-adorned knuckles across his eyes to get rid of the tears, "Anyway, I knoww I'm a fuckin' outcast, she doesn't havve to fuckin' tell me."